GOOD HEAD

Holy Crapballs!! Ok so mad drama! The cop has been a little absent these days. Now I know that he's not my bf but he used to text all the time now its more of me putting in the effort and just little things like that. So on Wed after he replied to my text I'm asleep and I later saw him on AIM, I was starting to take the hint. But I really like to make sure these things are really clear to me so I text him again yesterday saying enjoying the weather....his friendly reply was yes....no hint of making plans. So after I ask him when we are going to hang out again and he replies he works a lot of OT these days. I wrote back ok cool...see you around. It was fun while it lasted :) I know it was a bit dramatic but he's a little dim so I wanted to make sure that he got the point. Anyways, he writes back no no...lets hang out tonight. Ok so I bite.....I haven't seen him in 2 wks and I'm thinking maybe at least I'll get some :)

So after class we go to Joshua Tree. We have some drinks, chat, he's pretty drunk because he was drinking earlier....yada, yada back at the apt with no clothes on....I'm kinda drunk too so I start asking questions like why do you like hanging out with me. I know I'm sorry its lame but I still needed some affirmation that he likes me (I swear I don't normally act like this unless I feel like its going out the window anyways..ya know sort of like a last ditch effort) So he says to me, "Well you give good head." Now of course I'm a mix of shock and laughter because I've had 3 vodka redbulls.

But then he blurts out. "I'm seeing someone else too. You don't care right?" So I say nope so am I no big deal. Then the phone rings....he tells me to be quiet and picks up the phone. He proceeds to talk to this girl for 10 min about how he is taking the week off to be with her and her family and this whole big dramatic envolved conversation about how much he likes her. It ends with I love you! Ha! You can picture me picking up my clothes with my blood boiling.

I say you can go now. He says sit down we need to talk. So he proceeds to tell me that he has a gf in CA that he met when she lived here. And maybe we can be friends with benefits? Am I mad at him? Do I hate him? He wants to break up with her but doesn't know how to. What does he do?

I say first off you are retarded for picking up that phone. It's totally different seeing other people as opposed to saying I love you to someone....how can I compete with that? I don't hate him but don't really see how we can be friends. I don't want to get attached to something when he is so committed to someone else.

I was really calm not crazy or anything. We didn't really leave it as anything but I'm not going to go out with him anymore. Am I overreacting? My point is that if he was seeing other girls-no problem! But saying I love you and disrespecting me by picking up the phone in front of me? And if he is feeding her all that crap what is he feeding me?

Good thing for Match!!

PS...no real EJ updates....The doctor told her she is going to be after her due date and she is not happy!! Maybe she'll want to take her anger out on a cop?? ha!